Ate some bread this morning. Didn't like the feeling of solid food inside me, so made myself sick.
Today I just feel down. I've taken my antidepressants, and tried to occupy myself with other things, but I just feel like I'm never going to achieve anything. I feel utterly invisible and useless, hence the creation of this new blog today.
Thing is, I have over 20 different blogs, and it's because I thought if I made a good blog, I could be popular. I could inspire people, and be noticed. But it hasn't worked.
So, now there's this one. Because I've given up and this one is now just going to be all me. No pretending, no lies, no fake names and pretending to be happy, no big projects like my Ultimate Calorie Database, no pretending to be things I'm not... Just me.
So if you find this, and you know me, just remember that this is the uncensored, unpolished person beneath what you see.
Spread rumours, talk behind my back, make fun of me, I don't care.
I really don't care anymore.
I give up.
Today I just feel down. I've taken my antidepressants, and tried to occupy myself with other things, but I just feel like I'm never going to achieve anything. I feel utterly invisible and useless, hence the creation of this new blog today.
Thing is, I have over 20 different blogs, and it's because I thought if I made a good blog, I could be popular. I could inspire people, and be noticed. But it hasn't worked.
So, now there's this one. Because I've given up and this one is now just going to be all me. No pretending, no lies, no fake names and pretending to be happy, no big projects like my Ultimate Calorie Database, no pretending to be things I'm not... Just me.
So if you find this, and you know me, just remember that this is the uncensored, unpolished person beneath what you see.
Spread rumours, talk behind my back, make fun of me, I don't care.
I really don't care anymore.
I give up.
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